The more I journal, the more I am hearing that intimacy with Him should be our main objective. Everything flows out of that place of fellowship with God, even ministry. Especially ministry. Intimacy is the place where we draw our strength from Him, where His life flows into us. Our home base.
4 Dwell in Me, and I will dwell in you. [Live in Me, and I will
live in you.] Just as no branch can bear fruit of itself without abiding in (being vitally united to) the vine, neither can you bear fruit unless you abide in Me.
5 I am the Vine; you are the branches. Whoever lives in Me and I in him bears much (abundant) fruit. However, apart from Me [cut off from vital union with Me] you can do nothing. John 15:4,5 Amplified
I have never seen a grape branch bearing fruit without being attached to a vine. I have also never seen a grape branch stressing and straining to make a grape form. This happens naturally as it is attached to the vine.
This also is true of us, as we attach ourselves to our beloved Vine, and spend time with Him, His life flows to us, and through us. We receive His strength, love, comfort, guidance – whatever we need really. The result? Grapes!
I am convinced that this should be the purpose of my life – seeking Him first above all. Seeking His face. And if I am launched out into ministry, then it will flow out from my relationship with Him, my strong place, my hiding place, and it will be all of Him.
PS – I spend my intimate times with Him by journaling, reading His Word, and sometimes combining the two by talking to Him about what I am reading.