It was the new year. I was on holidays, and I was feeling well, and relaxed. A friend of mine made an innocent comment about a business idea that I had been already dabbling in. Wow! This was a great idea! Let’s do this! So I started researching what was involved. I sourced the materials and equipment I would need from the internet. I even wrote out a business plan and then looked up the government sites as to what was required of me legally – did I need to register a business name, product name, tax requirements etc. I was pumped!
And then…. I read an article by Andy Sayers called “2016: My Kingdom Come, My Courts Be Done!” This is the opening paragraph of his article.
At the beginning of 2015 I set out ready to conquer the world through a deep passion that I’ve worked in for many years – called publishing. By February, bizarre disappointments piled up fast. By the time fall came, I was exhausted and ready to pull my hair out (what’s left of it).
He went on to say why:
- I was building an empire with my own strength.
- I wasn’t putting the Lord first in every aspect of my life.
- I had to be knocked off my high horse
I felt a few ‘tuggings’ in me. Hmmm…. had I even asked God if this is what He wanted to do? I realised to my chagrin that I hadn’t. What if I had taken off with this ‘building my own empire’ as he puts it, only to have it not succeed and ending up discouraged and burnt out? I hadn’t even finished the last thing He had told me to do (writing).
So on to the back burner it had to go, and I had to ask Him to take away my desire for this Ishmael. I am now back to writing, and intimacy (and work or course!) And God may open the door again for this business idea to happen and I will know if that is the case when the desire comes back. Stay tuned.
To read the full article by Andy Sayers: