I was stewed up. I didn’t know which way to go, what to do. Going around in circles. Trying to reason it out. The only sensible thing I did at the time was to journal with Father about it.
It took a while, but I heard His whisper about being troubled and anxious about many things. Hmmm, where is that verse, Lord? Google helped me out with that one.
38 Now while they were on their way, Jesus entered a village [called Bethany], and a woman named Martha
welcomed Him into her home.39 She had a sister named Mary, who seated herself at the Lord’s feet and was continually listening to His teaching. 40 But Martha was very busy and distracted with all of her serving responsibilities; and she approached Him and said, “Lord, is it of no concern to You that my sister has left me to do the serving alone? Tell her to help me and do her part.” 41 But the Lord replied to her, “Martha, Martha, you are worried and bothered and anxious about so many things; 42 but only one thing is necessary, for Mary has chosen the good part [that which is to her advantage], which will not be taken away from her.” Luke 10 AMP
I was definitely being Martha-ish – being concerned about what I have to do, what people will think, what God will think etc etc. But Jesus said only one thing is necessary, and that is sitting at His feet, and listening to Him. One thing Lord, only one? Really? Sitting at Your feet? Sounds wonderful, peaceful and stressless.
And so I became more Mary-ish. I just sat at His feet, and ignored the yelling in my ear of all that needs to be done and all I should do. I only need to do one thing – Jesus said so! And it was wonderful, peaceful and stressless. And I got my answer.
I will get it eventually – He seems to keep on telling me about intimacy. One day it will sink in. I will keep you posted – it will be a red letter day. 🙂