He’s done it

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I have come to the realisation this morning that I am different, that I am changed.  When I was in my deepest darkest days, I would cry out to God and beg Him to do something, to fix whatever wrong with me, to lift off the awfulness I was feeling.  But I realised this morning that that is exactly what He has been doing.  It didn’t happen with a bang as I thought (or hoped!) it would, but a truth here, a revelation there (and not necessarily a big one), building me on a sure foundation, brick by brick.

I had been looking at all that needs to be still fixed in me, and despairing, instead of looking at what He has already done and how far I have come.  And for that Lord, I truly thank You, from the bottom of my changed heart.

The Lord your God will drive those nations out ahead of you little by little. You will not clear them away all at once, otherwise the wild animals would multiply too quickly for you.  Deuteronomy 7:22  NLT

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One thing

I was stewed up.  I didn’t know which way to go, what to do.  Going around in circles. Trying to reason it out.  The only sensible thing I did at the time was to journal with Father about it.

It took a while, but I heard His whisper about being troubled and anxious about many things.  Hmmm, where is that verse, Lord?  Google helped me out with that one.

38 Now while they were on their way, Jesus entered a village [called Bethany], and a woman named Martha

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welcomed Him into her home.39 She had a sister named Mary, who seated herself at the Lord’s feet and was continually listening to His teaching. 40 But Martha was very busy and distracted with all of her serving responsibilities; and she approached Him and said, “Lord, is it of no concern to You that my sister has left me to do the serving alone? Tell her to help me and do her part.” 41 But the Lord replied to her, “Martha, Martha, you are worried and bothered and anxious about so many things; 42 but only one thing is necessary, for Mary has chosen the good part [that which is to her advantage], which will not be taken away from her.”  Luke 10  AMP

I was definitely being Martha-ish – being concerned about what I have to do, what people will think, what God will think etc etc.  But Jesus said only one thing is necessary, and that is sitting at His feet, and listening to Him.  One thing Lord, only one?  Really?  Sitting at Your feet?  Sounds wonderful, peaceful and stressless.

And so I became more Mary-ish.  I just sat at His feet, and ignored the yelling in my ear of all that needs to be done and all I should do.  I only need to do one thing – Jesus said so!  And it was wonderful, peaceful and stressless.  And I got my answer.

I will get it eventually – He seems to keep on telling me about intimacy.  One day it will sink in.  I will keep you posted – it will be a red letter day.  🙂

 

Bushes, sheep and donkeys

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God can speak in unusual ways.  He has spoken through the fleece of a sheep (Judges 6), through a burning bush (Exodus 6) and even a donkey (Numbers 22).  I would like to add to the list an unusual way that God spoke to me – a Stampin’ Up! catalogue.

It was just a normal everyday day.  Then something triggered a panic attack.  But before it could get a hold on me (praising God usually helps) my eyes fell on to the open Stampin’ Up! catalogue.  It was advertising a stamp set, and one of the stamps said:

You’ve Got Courage

You’ve Got Strength

You’ve Got ME

And that broke it, but I was still a bit wobbly.  So I sat down to browse through the catalogue to keep my mind  occupied.  Lo and behold, and few pages later, another stamp set:

Good things are going to happen

You’ve got this

I’m here for you

It blew me away to think that He would use something so insignificant to get to me.    Years ago, I had a friend whom God spoke to through the paper church bulletin – the number of the bulletin and the date on it!

If He needs to tell us something, He can make it happen.  He can use even the small things in our lives to tell us something monumental.

 

 

 

Good morning, this is God!

Ever had one of those days?  One of those weeks or even months?  I did, only it seemed every day was one of those days.

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photo by Rudolf Vlcek Flickr

I was journalling to Father about it recently and my eyes fell on a quote on a little plaque that I received from Joyce Meyer, years ago.

Good morning, this is God!

I will be handling all your problems today.

I will not need your help –

So, have a good day.

I love you!

I must admit I was a little taken aback by the extent of what that meant, even though I had read it for years.  What, You mean I can just let it all go and let You look after it?  Can I really do that?  I asked Him for a verse, please, just in case Joyce got it wrong.  He gave me two:-

……  casting all your cares [all your anxieties, all your worries, and all your concerns, once and for all] on Him, for He cares about you [with deepest affection, and watches over you very carefully].  I Peter 5:7  AMP

Cast your burden on the Lord [releasing the weight of it] and He will sustain you; He will never allow the [consistently] righteous to be moved (made to slip, fall, or fail).   Psalm 55:22 AMP

Casting can also mean ‘to drop’.  Hmmm, so I can just drop it at Your feet, and then just walk away?  Sounds almost too good to be true, but I did it anyway.  And you know what? I started feeling more peaceful, knowing that He’s got it.

Today

“Can you get through today?”  I was in one of my depressed / anxious states and this is what I felt God was saying to me.  Today?  I was already looking at tomorrow, next week, next month and 10 years from now.  But today?  After careful thought and consideration, Oneyes, I can get through today.  And tomorrow, I will get through that day as one day as well.  Do I have enough finances to get through today?  Yes I do.  Is there a big bill due tomorrow?  That is not today.  I will face that tomorrow.  Is there a court case next week?  That is not today.  I think our shoulders are not designed to carry more than one day at a time.  And I find that it helps – I can get through today.

“So don’t worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will bring its own worries. Today’s trouble is enough for today.  Matthew 6:34  NLT